Full-Blown Suffering: My Fight With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.
The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches often start with intense pain around a single eye that lasts for several hours.
About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, severe pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.
What unites patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.
Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.
Historical medical texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.
The disorder were only formally classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.
In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.
Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.
A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.
Official guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.
But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a